Aaugh.

Quiet day here at work, so far. It's solidly in November, now, and I told myself that I'd do my damn application this month. Now that I'm giving time to myself (rather than throwing myself hither and yon, which was last month), I'm sitting down at work today and starting it.

Still can't shake the feeling that I'm making the wrong choice.

Not that I've felt that I've ever made a 'right' choice in the past few years.

And honestly, I don't know if that's the generalized fear of big steps talking, or if it's remnants of the total destruction of confidence that I still work against.

No way out but through.