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Something strange that I've noticed recently: when I'm with friends, or out with people in general, I can do something for hours straight--watch a movie, talk, play games, watch other folks do something (notably karaoke... *cough*). When I am by myself... my interest and ability to pay attention peters out around 30 minutes, 45 if I'm lucky.
This is outright bizarre, for me. My ability to suck down books for five hours straight, to indulge in self-run movie marathons, or unendingly tend to craftwork, is (was?) greatly noted (and in a few cases, at least back in college, wrt studying, admired). Now, I just can't stick to it.
What the heck is going on? I'd say that this change is driving me to distraction... except that I'm already distracted. Some days it's driven me to seek out company, for the sheer purpose of being able to do one thing for hours at a time. Not that I'm averse to being social these days, quite the opposite, but it does rather hamper one's ability to comfotably live solo.
Anybody out there have any sort of similar experience? I don't know if this is just a phase I'm going through, or a longer term change (*wail*), but I find it... irksome. Frankly, I miss that ability...
And as an illustrative point... it's taken me a week to actually force myself to sit down and write this message. I've had it in the back of my mind... I just never mustered enough interest to write the sucker in one go.
This is outright bizarre, for me. My ability to suck down books for five hours straight, to indulge in self-run movie marathons, or unendingly tend to craftwork, is (was?) greatly noted (and in a few cases, at least back in college, wrt studying, admired). Now, I just can't stick to it.
What the heck is going on? I'd say that this change is driving me to distraction... except that I'm already distracted. Some days it's driven me to seek out company, for the sheer purpose of being able to do one thing for hours at a time. Not that I'm averse to being social these days, quite the opposite, but it does rather hamper one's ability to comfotably live solo.
Anybody out there have any sort of similar experience? I don't know if this is just a phase I'm going through, or a longer term change (*wail*), but I find it... irksome. Frankly, I miss that ability...
And as an illustrative point... it's taken me a week to actually force myself to sit down and write this message. I've had it in the back of my mind... I just never mustered enough interest to write the sucker in one go.
